“Behold, I go to the east and He is not here, and to the west and I perceive Him not. In the north, when He made it I do not see; He wraps up the south and I cannot see (Job 23:9).” While in this case Job is not successful in his pursuit of God, what I like about it is that he went about actively searching for Him. So many of us sit still, waiting for things to find us or to happen to us. It’s easy to justify this methodology of leaving things up to ‘fate.’ But I firmly believe that we make our own fate, and it’s up to us to search in every physical/proverbial direction in order to find what we’re looking for. If something is important enough, we have to turn over every stone, look behind every corner, and journey wherever we need to in order to reach our goals. December has officially started, so people are starting to think in terms of resolutions – so maybe this year, let’s each pick one that matters that much to us.
This chapter is interesting in that it retells the story of how God and the Adversary decided to test Job. We already have the background information on him as a person, and now the text delves deeper into the relationship between the supernatural forces that make him relevant to us. “Now the Lord said to the Adversary, ‘Where are you coming from?’ And the Adversary replied to the Lord and said, ‘From going to and fro on the earth and from walking in it (Job 2:2).'” So many questions! Does God really not know where the Adversary is? What does it mean for him to be on the earth without supervision or oversight? What’s the difference between going to and fro and walking?
No answers, at least not yet.
Now we hear more about Job’s curses. He’s given boils, but it doesn’t make him curse God. His friends come to help him, but they’re just overcome with grief for him. “Afterwards, Job opened his mouth and cursed his day (Job 2:14).” He won’t curse God, but can complain about the legitimate terribleness of his day. This reminds me of people saying they don’t hate people, they hate their actions. I respect that, and wish I could be better about compartmentalizing like that.
Today is the start of a new book, and for the first time in a while, we have some narrative! “There was a man in the land of Uz whose name was Job, and that man was sincere and upright, God-fearing and shunning evil (Job 1:1).” Most people know the basics of the Job narrative, and this is a pretty basic introduction to him – he’s a good man, very loyal to God, and with this intro, we know his characteristics and location. We also find out that he has seven sons, three daughters, and a great amount of wealth in the form of livestock. Score for Job! His family seems pretty tight – every day, a different child hosts a feast and invites the other siblings to join, and at the end of each cycle, Job would sacrifice to God.
This all seems pretty peaceful and idyllic, and will of course all come to a crashing halt soon. God encounters ‘the Adversary,’ the euphemism for Satan in this translation. “Now the Lord said to the Adversary, ‘Have you paid attention to My servant Job? For there is none like him on earth, a sincere and upright man, God-fearing and shunning evil (Job 1:8).'” God is basically taunting Satan with Job’s righteousness, which leads Satan to counter and challenge God, saying that Job is only loyal because of the blessings that he’s been given. God takes the bait, and says that Satan can do whatever he wants to Job, other than physically harming him.
The problems begin right away. Job’s livestock is almost immediately destroyed, and all of his children die. It seems like things are already awful for Job, so I have no idea what it’ll mean for this devastation to be dragged out for over forty chapters. Hopefully the narrative will move things along, but I sense things may get repetitive!
“There are six things that the Lord hates, and the seventh is an abomination of His soul; Haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood; a heart thinks thoughts of violence; feet that hasten to run to evil; [one who] speaks lies with false testimony and incites quarrels among brothers (Proverbs 6:16-19).” Damn. Things must be really bad if they’re listed as the things God hates the most. I like this list though – God hates liars, those who run to do or think or speak evil, and those who incite these things between others. The Jewish new year just passed, and we’re currently in the time known as the ten days of repentance, when we’re supposed to make amends for the wrongdoings between us throughout the year. And all of these things are things that on some scale, large or small, human beings have done to each other this year. For me personally, I can’t say that I’ve shed blood, but I’ve definitely lied, and moved closer to doing the wrong things than the right ones. So now I’m left wondering how I can do better this year. What steps can I take to be in a better position when I reflect a year from now?
More than many of the others, this psalm reads like a real poem when translated into English. Each verse ends with the same refrain: for His kindness is eternal. Every verse says something about God – why we should give thanks to Him, what he has done, and how He should be treated and respected, and concludes with this idea of eternal kindness. That’s the kind of deity I want to believe in, one who at the core is kind to the world, and to us. So for this chapter, I’ll share the first and the last verses:
“Give thanks to the Lord because He is good, for His kindness is eternal (Psalms 136:1).”
“Give thanks to the God of heaven, for His kindness is eternal (Psalms 136:26).”
Both of these verses convey beautiful sentiments. We should be giving thanks more, whether it’s to God, or to each other. There are so many things that I should be grateful for every day, and like all of us, I could stand to be much more mindful of them. Let’s all pick someone to say thank you to tomorrow – they deserve it!
As I started reading this psalm, I began, as I always do, in English. But as some of the translations began to look a bit familiar, I quickly realized that I know the Hebrew for this one, because it’s used in the Hallel service. Hallel is the additional set of prayers said on most holidays. When I was little and went to synagogue with my dad, I used to get so excited to hear that it was a Hallel day, because even though it elongates an already long service, I loved singing these special additional words. As you’ve seen, the 150 psalms are a long slog at times, so it’s great to get rejuvenated with one that I truly love. And, of course, only 32 more to go!
“The Lord is for me; I shall not fear. What can man do to me (Psalms 118:6)?” It must be amazing to have complete faith that God is on your side, and as a result, there’s nothing to be afraid of. While personally I feel connected to God, or whatever higher power is there, I don’t necessarily think that means that I can’t be hurt by my fellow human beings. It would honestly scare me too much to be fully dependent on this kind of relationship with God. I think that people need to be proactive and take charge of their own lives and actions, rather than assume that divine intervention will take care of things. But intentional action, coupled with the confidence that faith can bring, sounds like the ideal state of being.
“Who is like the Lord, our God, Who dwells on high (Psalms 113:5).” There’s an inherent paradox in our relationships with God. On the one hand, He is completely ‘other.’ There is nothing comparable in human beings, or other deities. God is eternal, magnificent, all-powerful, in a way that none of us can never imagine. But at the same time, we’re supposed to be made in His image, and to at least aspire to behavior that mirrors His. So does this verse indicate a fallacy, that no one is anything like God? Or is it truly asking us who among us is like God, and is living a just and moral life?
“He makes winds His messengers, burning fire His ministers (Psalms 104:4).” When I read this verse, what it immediately raised for me is symbolism. I, and I assume I’m not alone in this, sometimes find myself putting a lot of faith in symbols that I designate for myself:
If I see a formation of Canadian geese today, it means my Grandpa Irving agrees with my decision.
If it takes an even number of steps to get to that door, it’s going to work out.
That rainbow means he loves me.
And so on, and so forth. None of it has any basis in reality – I intellectually recognize that my successes and failures are in no way contingent on messages from birds, or circumstantial events. But if we’re told that God uses nature and our environments as messengers for His words and intentions, maybe I’m not so farfetched?
Wow. Today I’m reaching 100 psalms. I’m honestly overwhelmed by that number. When I began this book of Tanakh, I was beyond intimidated by the number of chapters in this particular book. 150 seemed like an overwhelming number, lasting multiple months more than any previous book, and with no overarching storyline to keep things moving along. And now, I’m more than halfway done, and reaching this major round number emphasizes that for me. After today we have 50 chapters left, which means there are still over two months to go in psalms, but it’s starting to feel like the end is in sight.
“For the Lord is good; His kindness is forever, and until generation after generation is His faith (Psalms 100:5).” I love that this verse emphasizes God’s faith, not just our faith in Him. There’s a comfort in knowing that God believes in us as much as we’re supposed to believe in Him. It’s a mutual relationship, which makes it all that much stronger. I personally tend to thrive the most when I know that someone believes in me and is invested in my success. So today my goal is to hold that feeling close by, that no matter what I’m doing, someone has faith in me and my actions.
A double post today, since yesterday I was busy celebrating a dear friend’s engagement. It turned into a lovely, busy weekend, and I’m still catching up in a number of different areas. So, two quotes, from two psalms.
“Fortunate is the man whom You, Yah, chastise, and from Your Torah You teach him (Psalms 94:12).” This highlights one of God’s many attributes. In this case, He takes on the role of a parent to us, His children. I was lucky enough to spend yesterday with my parents, so this definitely hits home. No matter how old I’ve gotten, how mature, how independent, parents are still parents, in all of the best and most complex ways. Sometimes we need our parents to say the things to us that no one else will, and to come from a place of love to make us better.
“Come, let us prostrate ourselves and bow; let us kneel before the Lord, our Maker (Psalms 95:6).” This manifestation of God speaks to a less than relatable, parental attribute. In this verse, He is completely dominant and powerful, like an absolute monarch from another era. How are we supposed to reconcile both of these realities in the same being? When do we relate to God as one of these things, and when is He the other? Do we choose, or does He?